Here is Miss Personality, right on the end there, in her first sack race. I sort of relate to that feeling of having to work so hard to get somewhere!
I know I have mentioned, a couple of times at least, my little Onion Personals experiment. At the moment there is one person there I am interested in. We have written back and forth quite a bit and spoken on the phone a couple of times. On Friday night we actually talked for three hours and it really only ended when my phone battery died. Now we are nudging around the idea of actually meeting, but it is harder than it should be.
1. He lives about 30 miles away, which isn't so ridiculous, but it is on the other side of LA from me, so traffic and time is a huge factor.
2. He is an activist/environmentalist...a real one. He doesn't own a car anymore. He bikes and takes buses and trains. He is single, no kids, so he can get away with it. While I admire this in theory, it makes things difficult.
3. When I really stop to try and plan something, I realize how difficult it is for me to find time. I work until 9 two nights per week. So other evenings I feel pretty guilty if I'm not there for the kids. And on weekends, same thing. I am expected to be handy.
3a. I am trying hard to get WTG more involved. For example, couldn't he be in charge a couple days a week? But he is playing games with me. He wants Handsome Lad back at his house, but insists the only way to achieve this is if I tell HL he HAS to go. That I haven't the room for him, am not set up for him, and he has to go "home". I told WTG I cannot do that. If HL decides to spend all or at least more of his time at the house, so be it. However, I absolutely cannot tell my 11 year old that he CANNOT live with me. I can't. And at that point, WTG just throws up his hands...nothing he can do to help in that case. Guh.
So, yeah, I am feeling a bit frustrated. I feel like I should be able to have a life outside of work and home, but part of me knows that for the next few years chances are slim that I am actually going to live the dream.