Thursday, September 18, 2008
Give Me Patience. Now!
I am once again going to expound on a subject that comes up here from time to time. It's been on my mind lately, again, and you all know how writing something down can help! Here goes...indulge me if you can...I have been alone for a good long while now. Not ALL alone in the world, but you know...alone. Even before my marriage actually ended I was rather alone. Honestly, sometimes months (or at least weeks) go by when I don't even give it a thought. I am pretty busy, as we tend to get with our lives. On the days I work I am gone from the house a good ten hours. I have my kids who need my time and attention, some more than others. Still...every so often I get to feeling so melancholy and at the same time hopeful. I think to myself that it doesn't have to be like this...why couldn't I meet a nice man? Other people, some more hideous than me, seem to do it! haha! It seems so hard though. Especially since I don't get out much...I mean where am I going to meet anyone, really? I know that ideally I would be participating in events or classes or something where like minded people would be likely to meet, but even if I could find the time to do these things I am so stupidly shy. Then I do things like joining a personals site and nothing really happens. I tend to get these, like, penpals who don't seem interested in actually getting together and doing something. I'm not sure if that is about them or about me truthfully. Maybe they are meeting all kinds of people who just aren't me! I have no way to know.
Well, I have no real conclusion to this little ramble. I guess you can just consider it a peek into my current state of preoccupation. Any advice is, of course, welcome. *sigh*