Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Haiku #48

Annette, what a pest
Heard you had a child or two
Do you bother them?

World News Tonight

I exaggerate. Not world news. Um, okay, not even news. Just me posting my usual stuff and nonsense.
I am still feeling very irritable, but am making a genuine effort not to take it out on others. I think I'm doing a pretty good job so far. Driving to work today, I felt good with the top down, it wasn't too hot yet, just listening to Crazy over and over. Then at lunch today, I was sitting at the park reading and I laughed with pleasure at something I read. Stuff like that helps, don't you think? I do.
So, I am reading Love and Other Near-Death Experiences. This is the third of Mil Millington's three books that I have read and he is just da bomb, seriously.
For my listening pleasure, I have been going through my Steely Dan collection yet again and it just never grows old. Also, as noted a big dose of Gnarls Barkley, thanks to this mix CD that my youngest son made and then forgot in my car. It also has Ring of Fire on it...he has pretty eclectic taste for a 9 year old....

Me & Gnarls Are Feeling Crazy.

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Haiku #47

I remember you
One of those white girl cholas
Dirty blonde Rhonda

Color Me Self-Centered

Yes, thank you, I am feeling a bit better today. Yesterday I was way down and I wouldn't say that I am flying high today, but I have definitely risen a level or two. I feel sort of embarrassed when I read "my troubles" when in fact none of them are directly my troubles. And I really do believe in my heart that my son is going to be okay, both medically and personally. He is a fine young man, healthy and strong and smart enough to learn from his mistakes. I also think there is good reason to believe that WTG and the boys will get their truck back. It turns out the police found another truck that had been stolen right in that lot, so apparently they are just driving for awhile then dumping the trucks and picking up seems likely that their truck will turn up, hopefully mostly okay before too long.
As for the work stuff, I am definitely not going to allow that to dictate my mood. It is work, not life.
And the beat goes on.

Monday, June 26, 2006

My Troubles

I'm sorry. Believe it or not, I actually don't really like using my blog to complain or to highlight problems that I am having. Right now I am feeling a little overwhelmed.
My second oldest son is having some sort of health problem. He went to his regular doctor who has now refered him to a cardiologist. I am trying very, very hard not to worry and to believe that it will turn out to be nothing serious. I can't bear to think anything else, yet at odd moments I am stuck with cold fear. It is hard to say what he is feeling, because he is generally a very reticent person. His appointment is July 13, so I guess we'll know more after that.
Another thing...on Friday night he got pulled over with a carload of his friends. He'd had a beer and there is (rightly, I know) zero tolerance for underage drinking and driving. He is going to lose his license for a year. I know, I do, that punishment like that needs to be in place. I know how serious it is. It is such a hard, hard lesson though and it is going to affect the whole family. He won't only lose his license, he'll lose his job and that will effect his dad and his brother, as they all work together. And while both of these things are stressing me pretty harshly, my son's worries and pain are unknown to me...and that hurts too.
Lastly, thus far, WTG called just as I got to work today and told me that one of their work trucks got stolen off the warehouse lot where they park it. I guess it was insured against theft, but still... It feels like too much right now.
Does anyone have any good news for me? I could sure use it.

Haiku #46

Sophia Prado
Your full lips and luxe black hair
You must be gorgeous

How Do I Live My Life?

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

Friday, June 23, 2006

Short and Sweet

Sorry, this entry will have to be short as my time is short.
I am feeling sweet, because I just talked to Team C on the sweetie pie.
Now I can go off and have a nice weekend (please) and face another week of the sheer mind f*ck of a summer in the children's room of a public library.
Kisses to all!

Haiku #45

What a fine young man
I loved you, then I didn't
Ron, where are you now?

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Jack and Kyle

I don't believe that I have ever had occasion to mention here my love for Jack Black and Kyle Gass and all things Tenacious D.
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Just wanted to let you know that they do, in fact, rock the hizzouse. Those dirty boys.

I am reading. Hard to believe, but true. In between stuff I am rereading Bellefleur, one of the only Joyce Carol Oates books I've really liked. Today I picked up State of Happiness, which looks interesting.

Other than that, just trying to stay sane when it sort of feels like a lowish time for me. I know, though...I know that these feelings and the situations causing them will pass.

Haiku #44

You were so upright
Sure of all you did and said
Stern Janine Elzey

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Haiku #43

Lisa Acuna
We were so close for so long
I truly miss you

I Never Should Have Left the Circus

I am looking at a little comic strip from my collection and agreeing with the sentiment....I never should have left the circus! haha! Well, Milly and I like to think of our work as circus work anyway and, as you know, the work of the dancing bear is never done. A litte note about one of my personal proclivities...I tend to cut out any comic with something about the circus, pirates, ballerinas, bears, and email.
Drat...out of time already. This is brief, I know, but the love is there :-)

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

On and On, On and On, On and Oooooonnnnnn

You make recognize those as some of the words to the fabulous 70's hit On and On by Stephen Bishop. Thanks, SB. That's a pretty and sad song.

Okay, anyway things here are...stupid. I am so not into my co-workers right now! I don't know exactly what my problem is, but I am feeling a little out of the loop and also like I am not rushing around enough like a chicken with my head cut off to please everyone. Eff 'em.

I just finished a pretty good book called Memory Keeper's Daughter. Now I have to find something else to keep me occupado.

Haiku #42

You lived on my street
There were five of you rough boys
The wild Roarke brothers

Monday, June 19, 2006

And So It Begins

Today has been stupidly busy...and it is only the beginning. Well, the beginning may actually be among the hardest parts, so it will settle a bit. Then at the beginning to next week when we start having the volunteers come in it will get a bit nervous making again...then we fall into more of a routine...and it does end eventually :-)
I did have a nice four days off. My son's party was very successful on Saturday and our Father's Day family event also went well. WTG seemed peeved that I didn't get him anything, but he's not MY father! Geez. I did give MY father a gift!
I will try to write a bit more tomorrow when I get some breathing space. Thanks for being here, reading.

Haiku #41

I think about him
One of my biggest crushes
My heart ached for Todd

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

What, Again? (Also almost Happy Birthday to Son #3)

It is true, I am having yet another long weekend. I have had to burn off some floating holidays that I sort of neglected to take over the year and it has actually worked out very nicely for me. This time I am managing to avoid opening day of the Summer Reading Program and all of the fabulous hysteria which accompanies that event and I am ever so grateful.
I plan to just hang out, usher my kids through the last day of school tomorrow, the first day of summer vacation Friday, and a Birthday Bash for my #3 son on Saturday for his Sunday birthday...*whew*
I have talked to both Team C and the Swordsman, so I'm good there. I have done what I'm required to do here at work, so I'm good here. Now, I can deal with home uninterrupted for the next four days. "Oh, joy!" she said, almost not at all sarcastically.
Talk to you peeps soon! l.b.@onlyoneihave.blogspot

Haiku #40

Cute John from skating
You had blonde curls and brown eyes
Did we ever speak?

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Haiku #39

You were short and round
I remember your beard growth
Poor Mrs. Kaichen

My Big Fat Flamin' Hot Cheeto Fixation

Lately I have been snacking excessively on Flamin' Hot Cheetos. I guess I will have to simply ban myself from buying them until my burning cravings cease. Don't fill the emptiness with junk food l.b.! haha!

In addition to eating and working, I am also reading. Right now I'm on Love and Other Impossible Pursuits. It is soooo good. Music-wise I'm still kind of enthralled with my Panic! At the Disco cd.

Back to food...I put aside the FHCs, but Milly gave me some Haribo Fizzy Cola gummy candy...and man, are they tasty...

Monday, June 12, 2006

Haiku #38

Carlos Ocana
Teaching English and sharing
Way too much info.

Rather Large Lemon

WTG's brother has gotten himself this lemonade stand that is shaped like a lemon. He is an RN, but when he doesn't have a shift, he finds somewhere to set up his lemon and sells lemonade for $2 a cup. I saw it for the first time Saturday evening. It was sort of fascinating the way people were drawn to it. Inside it is like a perfect tiny little kitchen. When the little back door is open people love to come around and peer inside. It looks like this:
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Anyway, thanks to the fun large lemon night at a Swing Band festival in the High Desert and a quiet Sunday, I can say that I had a good weekend. Lets hope the week progresses as it should.

Thursday, June 8, 2006

Time Like a River...

Usually it is a swiftly flowing, white water river. Lately it seems to be moving along like a river of sludge. I couldn't say why, but other people around me are feeling it too. Perhaps it is just this singular period of time when summer vacation is about to begin...but it isn't quite here yet. There is plenty going on, and that usually leads to time spinning out of control. Now, though, time is playing games and it is too clever for me.
Reaching the downhill half of the work week feels like an accomplishment. Its been a nice enough week. I got to see my little guy participate in the Dance Festival at school on Tuesday morning. They have been doing a Dance Festival at this school for as long as I can remember and I hope they never give it up. It is, for some of us, especially the mothers of boys, the only time we are going to get to see our children actually dance! He looked sweet :-)
That same afternoon was our Employee Appreciation Picnic. We got to eat In-N-Out at the park and watch the orange shirts play basketball. Milly won the hula hoop contest! I think I may have found my traditionally required inter-city soul mate there. We all have one, but I had not yet found mine until our eyes met as he crossed the grass to pick up his raffle prize. He's a firefighter, cause they're my favorites. We need not speak to one another of is understood. Ah, good times.
Things have been sort of tense at home. WTG is going through a tense period, apparently, and all must suffer when he does. Luckily I have my scorching friendship with the Poet/Swordsman to keep me purring along.
I am reading a really good book right now called Family and Other Accidents. As for music, I have been relying heavily on my CDs because the radio hasn't been treating me well lately. As of this morning, though, I am hoping that the tide is turning. Just driving to work and flipping between my favorite stations I got to hear The Dandy Warhols, Kings of Convenience, Mojave 3, and Nada Surf. It was almost like a Milly mix tape it was so here's hoping it holds, cause I can't keep buying CDs like a maniac!

Haiku #37

Kim and Kevin Brown
We all skated together
A bit less than friends

Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Haiku #36

Big Mr. Wingate
Bald Social Studies teacher
Teddy bear or bear?

Monday, June 5, 2006

Haiku #35

Lynn and Dean the twins
You were both such evil girls
Get what you deserve?

Changing the World One Craigslister at a Time

I have this new penpal that I met on the wacky world of craigslist. A very nice fellow from Texas, just wanting to share thoughts on life and all that. He is one of these very earnest guys...I like that really, but it is also fun to poke little holes in their high falutin' theories about human nature and life as we know it. It is fun meeting new people, I do believe.
The weather has been very hot here and that is always nothing but trouble for me. Heat just has all these erotic associations for me...I'm not entirely sure why. At any rate, I am definitely a summertime person and it looks like summer is here with a vengence.
I spent the past couple of days reading Howard's End, one of my favorite books of all time. I am a real Forster fan (sure Robert Forster too...he was kinda hot in Jackie Brown)...Um, lost my train of thought...okay, anyway, Howard's End = gooood. Yeah.
We return you to your regularly scheduled program.

Saturday, June 3, 2006

Aw, She Feels Better :-)

Hi all y'all. I am feeling much more chipper today. I went to bed last night around 10:30 and slept until about 7:30, so that has my usual midnight to 5:30 beat by a long shot. Apparently I needed it.

Wish I had something interesting to report. Shockingly, I do not. Yesterday, when I was off, I had a quiet has been nice and hot...good weather for just lolling around. Tomorrow, I think I will probably end up spending a little time supervising my little guy's lemonade stand. That is fairly painless, though not too stimulating. Since our street is a cul-de-sac and no one really comes down it, he has to set up shop on this busier street that our street branches off of. If he could be right in the yard, it would be much easier, but as it is I can't leave him alone. I have to say, though, he makes some darn good $$$ with his little stand. People are so nice to kids selling lemonade :-)
Anyway, aside from that I have no special plans for tomorrow either. Am I THE most dull person on the face of the planet? Definitely in the running. Things could change though...they always do.

Haiku #34

The big girls next door
Angela and Alisa
We watched you kiss boys

Thursday, June 1, 2006

Haiku #33

Three little waifs
Linda, Crystal and Jamie
You had it so rough!

What Do People Envy About Me?

I thought taking a quiz about people envying me might cheer me up. It kinda did.

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

Longest Three Day Work Week EVER

It is true. For some reason, this very short week has seemed very long. I am just dragging ass. Hopefully tomorrow morning more or less to myself will refresh me. I think I just need a little more sleep, a lot more, um...attention, and possibly a personality transplant or something.

Lets see...I have been doing some reading. I haven't been up to anything too terribly taxing - quel surprise, right? I read In Her Shoes. Jennifer writes some not too, too chicky chick lit, so I found it a fine read. I also reread Seventh Heaven. I haven't loved everything that Alice Hoffman has written, but this particular book has long been one of my favorites. Right now I am in the midst of reading Mike, Mike, & Me. I'm into it, because of the whole sort of 'what could have been' angle. I'm often working that one myself :-)