Monday, July 20, 2009
Not Quite Howling at the Moon
Not very original, but I swear this is exactly how I've been feeling for the past couple of days. I really don't have anything specific I can complain about. Everything is fine, in general. Just a dark mood. And small things building up:
-There is a lot of tension at work right now. I try to stay out of it, but due to the nature of office politics it can become difficult. The Summer Reading Program is going fine, as far as I can tell. Anyone who doesn't work in the Children's Section of a public library would laugh at how tied up people's egos seem to be in this program. It is beyond ridiculous. I don't let that get to me, but it is the insane infighting that does get to me sometimes.
-My daughter is pressuring me to find out if we can get into the two bedroom that is available in our building. I think I could afford it, but the thought of moving again, even across the courtyard, makes me want to cry. I feel, literally, like I cannot manage it. I am fine in the one bedroom, sleeping on the couch. I don't care, but apparently she's decided it bothers her. Ugh.
-The Kickback Dude and Princess Diva have also expressed and interest in the apartment. I don't know how to tell them that living so close would probably kill us all. I feel like that is an awful thing to say to my son and his family. And possibly unfair. I don't know.
-I have had a complete and apparently final break with a longtime friend...who turned out to be not such a friend. I'm just as glad to leave it like this. There is nothing to salvage now. But it still saddens me. I not only lost this friend now, but it is kind of like I lost the idea of this friend too, if you know what I mean.
I know this is the place to vent, and my fellow bloggers are always quite patient and kind. Sympathetic comments welcome! Still, enough. There are so many good things.
I have been enjoying the different takes on the 40th anniversary of the moon landing. Mine was yesterday, in song :-) It sounds silly to say it, but I have always been a fan of the moon. I wouldn't really want to go there, because the desolation would probably undo me completely...but I love the moon from a distance. It is so beautiful and constant and constantly changing.
Happy Anniversary, Moon, from one of your biggest fans. xoxo