Thursday, February 26, 2009

I Guess I Should Be Embarrassed

As you will recall, in my post on Monday I was quite enthusiastic about my date on Saturday night. Since I really haven't heard from Mr G, clearly that enthusiasm was totally one sided. As the headline says, I guess I should be embarrassed. I just don't have it in me though. I did have fun, I did like him. The fact that it only went one way...well, it happens. It sort of makes me feel aware that maybe I am not bringing much to the table, so to speak... I mean, I'm not looking to be uplifted here and I'm not exactly feeling bad about myself, but lets face it...I don't have much to offer. So, I am just going to look at the positives. I had a nice dinner, saw a good movie, and had some interesting conversations. I got to feel happy and excited for awhile. I was inspired to read a book that I'd been meaning to read and am enjoying quite a bit. Meeting someone new is seldom a total loss and this certainly was not. So there you have it. I guess I should be embarrassed, but I think in the end it is okay to put your feelings out there. It seems better to get excited and happy than to be all jaded and closed off. That is my opinion. What is yours?


Churlita said...

Oh, you know me. My feelings are always out there. I have had friends tell me that it's a bad idea, but that's who I am. I don't want to pretend to be someone else, just to get someone and then have it not work because I was lying.

I say get excited, and why be embarrassed about it? I'd be way more embarrassed about not letting myself experience things because I was afraid it wouldn't work. If it helps, I'm right there with you in this.

I'm going to disagree with you when you say you don't have a lot to bring to the table, though. Dude. You're a hot librarian. That's a lot right there, but you're also funny, smart, well read, and thoughtful. Best of all, you're an amazing mom. You just have to find a guy who's intelligent enough to value all those things about you...And I'm hopeful that you will.

NoRegrets said...

Seriously, I agree with Churlita. Jeez, you do have a lot to offer. And well, someday there'll be someone to share it with.

The Furtive Wangler said...

Nothing wrong with putting feelings out there. Try and chillax this weekend. A few days is such a short time, you can't really draw any conclusions yet. Have a great weekend.

laura b. said...

Churlita: Thank you so much. It seems important to me too, not to pretend in the beginning. I yam what I yam.
Thanks your kind words too. I think hot might be stretching it, but I have other qualities that someday the right person will appreciate. No rush.

NoRegrets: Thank you very much. I am sure you are right and I have to admit it feels nice to have the support :-)

FW: I am definitely planning to relax this weekend.
I sort of think the first few days say a lot. The beginning is when someone is going to be enthused...if they're inclined. It is okay that this guy isn't.

Tara said...

Sorry I'm late here, but you need to stop selling yourself short and realize that you deserve the best relationship and deserve to have the affection go both ways. You do so much to offer. No need to feel embarrassed at all just because the sparks weren't mutual. Keep your chin up and get back on the horse.

laura b. said...

Tara: I don't mean to sell myself short. I have to remind myself that realistically, I am probably going to appeal to this very specific person...and it is just a matter of hoping that person crosses my path. I guess that will keep me trying :-)