Thursday, July 5, 2007

How Was It For You?

Ah, another holiday under my belt. Independence Day has come and gone again for another year with the attendant barbeque and fireworks. This year, Secret Agent Man ran the festivities at the house. I gave him some money to shop, but he did the actual shopping. He and his friends did all the grilling as well. Social Animal was out with friends, as was Girlie Girl. Truthfully, I did very little yesterday. It was my first day off in a couple of weeks that I hadn't been placed in charge of little Miss Personality in some capacity. I love, love, love her, but two year olds are exhausting :-) Anyway, I really took the day off because Secret Agent Man and his friends were very kind to Handsome Lad, as they are on occasion, and let him hang out. They even served me my plate and cleaned up fairly well after themselves. Later in the evening they set off some fireworks in front of the house. Fireworks are actually illegal in my city, but they do sell them legally about half a mile away in the next city over...so people get them, bring them home, and set them off. I don't think the police make a big deal of it as long as neighbors don't complain...and believe me, none of our neighbors had any room to complain about fireworks! Also we could see a couple of fireworks shows that were going on from not too far away just by standing in the yard.
It was nice to have a quiet, stress free holiday, but when it is quiet I do tend to think too much. Got myself sort of depressed and blue. I am frustrated that the quiet time I crave so much tends to lead to me feeling sad. I don't think it is any great indication of mental health that I need to be running a million miles a minute to keep despair at bay. Geez, this turned into a whiny post and that was not my intention...but there you have it.

6 comments:

evil-e said...

not whiny, just the result of a doomed mid week holiday....

It was a weird feeling day altogether, I woke at the usual time, did my morning like always, and then proceeded to lay around all day. Not much happened in the lair of the evil one.

Tara said...

I was anxious and nervous and messed up on the morning of 4th of July. I didn't want to hang out with family and I didn't want to watch any fireworks. That feeling faded, but it was a strange time to have a day off.

That's so great that Secret Agent Man and his friends were giving you the break you totally deserve!

Babybull40 said...

You were not whiny at all.. You did your thing and the kids were great and you got to see fireworks.. what's so depressing about that? Yes two year olds can be very tiring.. Mr.Giggles is almost there.. another 5 month's...

l.b. said...

Evil-E: Thanks, I like the idea of the day being doomed...like I am suffering from some universal malaise instead of just individually moping.

Tara: I'm glad I'm not the only one who found this to be a weird holiday experience :-)
The guys were really nice and I appreciated it fully.

BabyBull: You're right, there should be nothing depressing about that. It is just that when I have quiet time I tend to think too much.
haha! You are all fresh for the 2 year old experience though. I am doing 2nd generation duty and I can feel it ;-) I am both more patient and more tired than the first time round.

Churlita said...

That happens to me a lot too. When I finally have time, it can make me think about the things I don't have or I just get this overall feeling of loneliness. Damn, I wish I could just turn that off.

l.b. said...

Churlita: I know huh! When I am not needed for anything all of a sudden I feel...not needed.