Tuesday, April 20, 2010

1,500 and Counting

This Talk Talk Tuesday post marks my 1,500th at this blog.  That is a lot of talk talking, isn't it.  Unfortunately, my heart is breaking today, so I am not a happy talk talker.  DR told me that he is going to have to go back to North Carolina in a couple of weeks.  There are good reasons, and it isn't forever (he believes), but I am still feeling....stunned and sort of sick with grief.   So...here is my Talk Talk for this Tuesday ---

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
-Elizabeth Bishop

Hope you all are much happier than I am feeling right now.  But I know, I know, I know I can be alright again.  What choice is there, after all?

14 comments:

secret agent woman said...

Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry to hear that.

FW said...

What a shock! I hope it's a very temporary situation.

Tara said...

Oh no, Laura, I am so sorry! I hope his stay in NC is temporary, and that he comes back soon. But I know that you'd prefer he didn't have to leave at all. Let me know if there's anything you need or if you want to talk it out more.

I like the poem, I heard it in the movie "In Her Shoes". It's bittersweet, but it's a great poem.

NoRegrets said...

How long is 'not forever'?? So sorry...

laura b. said...

Secret: Thank you.

FW: I hope so too, but at best it will be several months...at worst, he decides to stay there.

Tara: Thank you so much. I am so emotional right now that I can't work out exactly what I am feeling! I guess I don't handle things very well.

NoRegrets: Yeah, that part is all still rather nebulous. Several months - forever.
Thank you.

Churlita said...

I'm with Nor. What does not forever mean? With my abandonment issues, I would need some kind of an end date for the NC "visit".

Hang in there. We're all here for you if you need us.

laura b. said...

Churlita: Yes, I am very bothered by how open ended this is. And also by how it was presented to me after it had been decided. That hurt. I think most people have some abandonment issues.
Thank you, Churlita.

Mrs. Hairy Woman said...

Sorry to hear that.. Hope it works out and he comes back for good!.. My heart aches for you..
;)

Pamela said...

Ah, that's bad. Presented after decided. Hmm...

laura b. said...

Mrs: Thank you. I just don't know...

NoRegrets: Exactly.

Ananda girl said...

Ah... now I understand. I am sorry.
That is crushing news. That will be hard.

laura b. said...

Ananda: It is hard and getting harder...

crazy4coens said...

sheesh!

laura b. said...

Crazy4Coens: I know!