Tuesday, November 7, 2006

2sday

Sometimes it seems the whole world is in 2's. Not me. Mostly, that is a good thing to my mind. There are times, like when I am moping about...like now-ish, that I feel like I am alone and will be alone forever. Of course not actually alone. I am, in fact, very rarely alone. I've got kids for miles and work with the public and if I am lucky that won't change. But now and then I get that dark, clear knowlege that I am not loved. Not in that particular way, you know? Fuck. Sorry, I better get back to thinking of fun stuff...

3 comments:

Rachel said...

I hear you. Seriously. I haven't been in a serious relationship since 1998.
It sucks when you think that you might be alone forever.
Kids are awesome but they can't fill the roll of comforter, confidante or provide that kind of intimacy.

Tara said...

You're not alone when thinking you're alone. I have my days where I'm grateful that I don't have anyone, and then the next day it hits me that I would very much like to meet someone who gives off "pick me!" sparks.

l.b. said...

Thanks, girls. It really does help to know I'm not alone in feeling alone. It seems like one of those things you just say, but it turns out that it is true.