Monday, June 26, 2006

My Troubles

I'm sorry. Believe it or not, I actually don't really like using my blog to complain or to highlight problems that I am having. Right now I am feeling a little overwhelmed.
My second oldest son is having some sort of health problem. He went to his regular doctor who has now refered him to a cardiologist. I am trying very, very hard not to worry and to believe that it will turn out to be nothing serious. I can't bear to think anything else, yet at odd moments I am stuck with cold fear. It is hard to say what he is feeling, because he is generally a very reticent person. His appointment is July 13, so I guess we'll know more after that.
Another thing...on Friday night he got pulled over with a carload of his friends. He'd had a beer and there is (rightly, I know) zero tolerance for underage drinking and driving. He is going to lose his license for a year. I know, I do, that punishment like that needs to be in place. I know how serious it is. It is such a hard, hard lesson though and it is going to affect the whole family. He won't only lose his license, he'll lose his job and that will effect his dad and his brother, as they all work together. And while both of these things are stressing me pretty harshly, my son's worries and pain are unknown to me...and that hurts too.
Lastly, thus far, WTG called just as I got to work today and told me that one of their work trucks got stolen off the warehouse lot where they park it. I guess it was insured against theft, but still... It feels like too much right now.
Does anyone have any good news for me? I could sure use it.


Tara said...

I'm so sorry to hear about what's been going on! Just curious, but what is your son experiencing? Do you think he has high blood pressure or maybe it could be stress related? I hope all works out at the cardiologist! And maybe the suspended license and losing his job will be a wakeup call for him.

l.b. said...

Thanks Tara. Some of what he has said to me about not feeling quite right sounds to me like anxiety. Also, his dad had high blood pressure and I believe that can run in families...also his dad is a recovering alcoholic which can also run in families. I sincerely hope that he does get a lesson out of whats happening. If he learns it young like this, the rest of his life can be better.