Saturday, July 30, 2005

Dull Roar

That is the sound outside the office door. When I am at the desk, outside of the office, the sound upgrades to a sort of controlled hysteria.
Ah, Sat. in the Lib. ...what a pleat and a treasure it is.

Not much to report (is there ever?) Just trying to hang through the next few weeks of summer. It has it's definite good points, such as the chances to sleep in and get a slower start in the mornings. However, I do feel a little better when my children don't have quite so much free least the younger three.

#2 son finally got a job and begins gainful employment next Tuesday. We also have to get on the ball and get him enrolled at Citrus. #3 Son, coincidentally, is scheduled to take his Driving Test on that same day. What a day, huh?

Still meandering through Family Pictures. Tomorrow night is Six Feet Under, Entourage, and The Comeback . Oh, and Friday there were several episodes of Arrested Development on! Woo-hoo! The TV gods, they smile.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

End in Sight

Only two more weeks (or very nearly) left in SRP 2005. It is starting to seem that the end is indeed in sight. Of course, it never really ends. There is the rehashing of the most recent SRP, comments and suggestions for next year and the planning for it begins again, hard core, in January. But, you know my thoughts on unpleasantness....let it go, at least for now.

Not much cooking otherwise. Home life is fine, all things considered. I'm feeling a bit broody, because my oldest son is getting ready to move into an apartment with his girlfriend. He'll be 20 in just a week, so it is certainly within reason that he would want to move out...that is actually exactly how old I was when I moved out. I feel like I am pretty prepared for them to start moving in this other direction (namely away from me). Still, change is almost always hard in one way or another.

Right now I am reading, for the umpteenth time Family Pictures. It is a very...involved book. It has been one of those ones I can reread with pleasure time after time. I do always feel rather silly rereading something when I have so much that I haven't gotten to on my "To Read" list. At the same time, it can be very relaxing to just enjoy something that you KNOW is good. I guess I need a bit of comfort at this time.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Oblidi Oblida

Life goes on :-) Been busy, busy, busy and of course that is a great help when you're feeling bummed. My circus hours have been very well attended and I feel like the patrons are, for the most part, genuinely enjoying them. That means a lot to me. I've been reading and reading. I ended up starting with The Ice Queen and then moving onto A Long Way Down. I am very close to being done with that...guess I might as well not bother with LD guy's pick as he no longer speaks to me...but lets not go there! Focus on the good and the cool! Like...going to lunch tomorrow with my little bear friend Milly. Nuttin' fancy. Maybe just all-you-can-eat at Shakey's. Maybe chicken pot pie at Moffatt's. Whatever.

Oh, I know what I haven't mentioned. I saw a really good movie last Saturday! It was called Happy Endings I haven't seen a movie I enjoyed as much in sooooo long. I highly recommend that you check it out. Lisa Kudrow! You know, Phoebe was usually my least favorite Friend, but seeing her in the movies that she has done, and in her new series The Comeback, I have to say that I am becoming a huge fan.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Falling Apart

My online "love" life seems to be falling apart. LD guy...I think he's through with me. I cannot let this bring me down the way it feels like it could...I just can't go through it like that. I don't have the resources to deal with it emotionally, you know? I am just going to have to live through it without letting it really register. Am I being oblique? I only mean that I am going to be sailing the river Denial for the next little bit, so bear with me. This, too, shall f*cking pass.

Friday, July 22, 2005

TGIF- How Original!

I am pretty glad it is Friday, in spite of the unoriginality of the sentiment. I mean, it hasn't been a bad week, all in all. In fact, it has had its definite bright spots. It will be nice to have a couple of down days, though, and that is exactly how I intend to spend the next two days...laying low and taking it easy peasy.

I have two new books in my bag, but haven't decided which I will read first. One is Long Way Down. The other one is The Ice Queen. They each have much to recommend them, so it will be hard to choose what to hit first! Life is so rich and yummy :-)

Have a nice weekend, you rascals!

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Harry Potter is a Little Wanker

No, not really! Well, sort of...I mean, I'm just not into the whole phenomenom. In my line of work, though, the correct thing to do is to put personal preferences aside and celebrate anything that encourages children's love of reading. It is fun to see kids excited about a book. I just don't get it, though. What is it about these particular books? If I had to guess, based on my cynical view of things, I would say it was superior marketing. I only bring this whole thing up, because the sixth book came out last Saturday, so it is all the talk here at work. Also, today we are doing 3 sessions (up to 75 kids in each) of a Harry Potter themed party. Kids can't get enough of it. Happy to report that none of MY children are particular fans :-) heh heh!

Wednesday, July 20, 2005


Whew, I am feeling fine, thank you very much. You ever have one of those days? As my old friend Mick says, "You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need." Aaaaahhhhhhh!

Moving on, I am double reading again. I had just started on Ian McEwan's A Child in Time.
Not an easy read, but I do enjoy McEwan's mind. On the recommendation of my dear friend, called here Long Distance guy (among other things) I have also picked up Obsession. This one, I haven't officially begun, but have big plans for this evening.

Okay, gots to goes....signing off with a "Yeah, Baby!" in honor of Six Feet Under.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

The good is: Secret Mission for tomorrow got the thumbs up. Yes!
The bad is: My 'puter is on the fritz. No!
The ugly is: W. and his effing insanity. F*ck!

Monday, July 18, 2005

Monday, Monday

And so, another weeks begins! Still counting down...Four more weeks. See how managable it is getting? It is beyond wonderful to feel that the end is in sight.

The rest of my life is as it should be, I suppose. I do continue to feel gratitude that my kids are all behaving themselves, thus far, over the course of this hot, hot summer. Friendships are being maintained to a satisfactory degree for all parties, I think...although I am starting to think I had the wrong end of the stick with Long Distance Guy. That seems to be making its way towards a more fraternal thing than a red hot love affair. Thats fine, or rather, it has to be fine. When there is so much space involved it becomes more than difficult to insist on something more...

No secret mission last week, due to sudden complications wrought by sun and other circumstances. I remain hopeful, however, that this week will be more fruitful. Circumspectly speaking, those secret missions save my sanity.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Take Your Kid to Work Day

Today, I had to bring my youngest son to work with me for a couple of hours. He is getting big enough that it is really not a problem, although a couple of hours is the most he can happily handle. It is always fun, but sort of unsettling to have any of my kids here at work with me. It is like worlds colliding, you know?

Yesterday evening, I took my two youngest kids and my nephew to see the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory movie. We met my oldest son, his girlfriend & her baby girl there. We all really liked it. I love me some Johnny Depp, as any right thinking person does. It was fun to watch, with the production designs and all, plus it was a more twisted take on the tale. It didn't "feel" exactly like Roald Dahl, as Tim Burton has a pretty stong vision himself, but if certainly seemed to better reflect Roald Dahl's dark sensibilities.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Sane Things in an Insane World

1. My Fabulous Children
2. Pirates
3. Bears
4. Circus Life
5. Tutus
6. Shaking My Sillies Out
7. Email
8. Books
9. Monkeys
11.Secret Missions

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Hump Day

I always loved that name for Wednesday. Over the hump and it is all downhill to the of course you get to hump all you want, right?

Just finished circus hour and will soon be going out with the Ladies Who Lunch. We will, of course, be hitting the ever popular LeRoys. Tater tots sound mighty good right now.

Still making my way throughThe Wind-up Bird Chronicles. I have also begun About a Boy I am reading the first at home, for now, and the second is coming back and forth in my big bag o'stuff to work...which I better get back to :-)

Monday, July 11, 2005

Five Weeks and Still Counting

It seems that in spite of everything time is, indeed, passing! Right now, I feel that is a good thing. Sometimes not so much. Sometimes it flies by much too quickly, but right now it can move like lightning!

Another weekend down, with surprising little drama or trauma. Thanks for small favors, right? Looking forward to some nice things this week, such as lunch with my girls and, hopefully, a secret mission before the week is out.

Right now I am reading The Wind-up Bird Chronicles I actually read it once a while ago, but it is one of those books definitely worth taking another look at. It is pretty complex and tells and very multi-layered story. I am looking forward to reading some of Haruki Murakami's other books soon. I also have some Nick Hornby books on my "to read" list. Well, my "to read" list is pretty out of hand, but I plug away at it when I can.

Friday, July 8, 2005

In the Pink

Thankfully, I am feeling better today. Got a bit of talk time in yesterday with my 3,000 mile man. Got a phone call I needed to get. Got a good night's sleep. All contributing to my renewed good spirits.

Been reading, reading, reading as usual. Right now I'm working on Eleanor Rigby by the always interesting Douglas Coupland. Before that I reread Susan Howatch's divine Wheel of Fortune That is always time consuming and engrossing.

Trying to get tickets to a Decemberists show in September at the Glass House in Pomona, but not sure if that is going to work out...

Aside from that, just looking forward to another fabulous weekend of ennui and angst.

Thursday, July 7, 2005

I've Got the Blues

Feeling a bit down lately. I can't seem to make a good connection with Long Distance guy. Through a series of unfortunate events, we just sort of keep missing each other. It is difficult, at the best of times, being in a long distance relationship. When communication breaks down, though, the situation becomes even more fraught with complications. How do you keep that "together" feeling with someone that you not only never actually see, but also speak to less and less? Love is strong, but it needs to be least that is how it seems to work for me. Here's hoping that things get better soon. I don't want to lose him.

Saturday, July 2, 2005

THE place to be

Apparently, every other Saturday, I am so there! Or here, as the case may be.

The blow up at home that I was anticipating did show up yesterday...but in the end these explosions never change a thing, so it is hard for me to get too worked up over them anymore. My life is turning me into some sort of cold hard beeyotch...but I am hoping to regain my sweetness someday.

Have a happy Independence Day all y'all! xoxo