I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed lately. Part of it is just seasonal. Every year I end up berating myself for somehow lacking the joy of the season. There is no genuine reason to be stressed as far as Christmas goes, but still...I am stressed. I just am. And yet in the end, I've never had a bad or even disappointing Christmas. So, it is hard to explain.
Also, there seems to be a lot going on in the family right now. Kick Back Dude doesn't have a car right now, so he's been driving Girlie Girl's, while the rest of us are trying to figure out a way to get him a new car. Yet look at me. A couple of months ago, my mom had to save me when I needed a car. How are any of us still functioning!
Handsome Lad is in some kind of feud with his dad. This leads to more time with me and I enjoy that, but there is some anxiousness about it. He gets very clingy and it is difficult when he doesn't want to talk to his dad sometimes.
Everything is making me feel sort of nervous. I find myself seeking reassurances from DR..and instead of just asking for what I need, I tend towards saying stupid things trying to get his attention. He doesn't have much patience for it, refuses to react the way I wish he would, and I end up just feeling worse.
To top it all off, Princess Diva seems to be having a nervous breakdown, literally. Last night, Kick Back Dude had to call for help because she was threatening to hurt herself. She was taken to the hospital and we thought they were going to observe her for 72 hours, but she was released awhile ago. I don't know what's going on, but of course it is upsetting for everyone.
So, there are my complaints. My worries. My tiny hells. I feel like a cat laying a gross dead mouse at your feet and wanting something from you, but I couldn't say what. Possibly just getting it all out there is enough. Thanks, blog friends. I do appreciate you being out there.