Sleepy Nappy Time, Please.

Will this day ever end? I am about 5.5 hours into my 9 hour day and I do not know how I'm going to make it! I honestly don't remember the last time I felt so sleepy! I guess it is just sinus congestion, although I don't really feel bad right now....just incredibly heavy-lidded. Possibly the effect of an antihistimine I took earlier today. I went outside at lunchtime, hoping the sun would revive me, like a lizard or snake. I did feel pretty good while I was out there, but once I got back inside I wilted again. I am trying hard not to even blink too much, because once my eyes close, they don't want to open again. Half of today, then one more day to get through...I am so going to sleep in on Saturday. Maybe I'll feel more chipper by then. Being tired like this makes me feel, uh, tired...but also makes me feel down. It makes me wish for something fun to be going on...and its not!

Self- Control Anyone?

Where is mine? I just can't seem to get on board with the self-control thing. Damn. I seem to keep doing things that would suggest I should just get hold of myself, but instead I do what I want to do right at the moment. Not the grown-up thing to do. I kind of justify myself to myself in my head by saying that there are many constraints on the way I can live my life, so I should be allowed to do the small things that bring me pleasure. That isn't true, though. Having limitations doesn't free you from having to abide by OTHER limitations! Also, please recognize that I recognize that mea cupla-ing it up in here doesn't excuse me either! Will I get a grip? Honestly, probably not at this exact point in time. Someday...maybe. Introspection sort of sucks. I should stay shallow.

Reading: Thumbsucker
Listening to: The Ditty Bops
Eating: Peanutbutter crackers and an oatmeal chocolate chip cookie
Drinking: Starbucks bottled Mocha Frappuchino
Feeling: Tired and stuffy headed

Now, a Proper Post

Okay, maybe not proper, but longer? More dishy. Okay, maybe not dishy. I gots no dish today.
Over the weekend I did get out to the movies. I went out to my favorite small theater in Pasadena and saw Thumbsucker I enjoyed the performances very much. I always like Tilda Swinton. Vincent D'Ononfrio was good. Keanu Reeves found a perfect role, as did Vince Vaughn. Kinda uncool cool soundtrack.
I also found myself between books, so I pulled out the book that I had just pimped to an acquaintance as being a favorite of mine.Still Life With Woodpecker This is a book that I read when it first came out when I was about 17 or 18. Tom Robbins' style and wit totally changed the way I looked at reading...and writing for that matter. I enjoy it to this day. I like his other books as well, but this was the first of his that I read and it holds a special place in my heart.

Me So Dumb Bunny

Okay, this is, for the record, my third attempt to publish from my email to my blog.  Dear R. was right...it is easy, IF you put in the right email addy.  Um, duh.  But here I am!  Posting from my email!  Coolness.

Am I Evil? Just a Quiz :-)

I am 19% evil.




I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.


Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

I (heart) Long Lunches

Everyone needs a long lunch every now and again. You can't take them too often, or you draw attention to yourself and people resent you and your bad time managing ways. Every so often though it is a little slice of heaven to sneak away for just a bit longer than your average sandwich and sody pop lunch. I recommend it. Get yourself some good company, finesse your way out, making it difficult for anyone around to know EXACTLY when you left...then...linger. Enjoy an oasis in the desert of your day. We deserve it.

Blogging is All About the Secrets

Someone shared a link with me today to a really cool blog. By all means, check it out for yourself. http://postsecret.blogspot.com So many people's secrets could be my own...our secrets are universal to some degree. And if your secret is not so universal, then lets face it, it is probably quite horrible, right?

Been a busy day here in the Land of Fun & Learning. Two peeps out sick, so lay it on the healthy ones so hard that they won't be healthy for long! haha! Neh, its cool. People get sick, whatever. I personally find that I get more rest here than if I try to stay home. No pity to be found there :-)

My happy news is that I am once again up for a Secret Mission tomorrow. It has been far too long since the last meeting of Team C, so there will be plenty of catching up to do and not much time in which to fit in all that needs to be accomplished. Lets see how it goes.

School of Rawk

Stuff to say, but some days I just can't seem to get here for some quality face time. So, let me fill in the past couple of days....Friday went from beginning disasterously to ending well. Early in the day, I was getting acrimonious phone calls from WTG, as he knew I had plans to go out in the evening. He feels it is my responsibility as a mother to be sitting at home when I am not at work. To some degree, yeah, I agree. I have plenty to do at home, always. However, when I gave birth, I didn't exactly sign away the rights to having an actual life outside of the home, did I? I'll answer that...no, I didn't. Especially now that my kids are getting bigger. Two of them are adults! Oh, dear...where was I? Defending my right to take a few hours off on a Friday night. Okay, so, the day was sucky with "discussions". The concert, however, was tres cool. The venue is quite intimate. It was packed. The place is all standing. We found a great place on these risers sort of to the side/back of the room with an excellent view and a nice railing to lean on. When we went to check out the t-shirts and posters, there were a couple of the band members out selling their stuff! That was a nice touch. The opening band was called Sons and Daughters Very energetic and Scottish. The lead singer girl danced like Elaine in Seinfeld :-) Then...The Decemberists! Such a fun show...tended toward the mellow. They had some amusing banter and really interacted with the crowd. I had a completely good time! I only wish they would have played "Mariner's Revenge". Ah, well.

Saturday evening I took my littles out to a drive in with the big one and his family. We saw "Just Like Heaven" and "Red Eye", so that was rather a suckfest. It only cost $5 total to get in, though, and the movies were fine for everyone to see. Actually "Just Like Heaven" was moderately cute...mainly because of the actors. I like me some Mark Ruffalo.

This morning, I worked at the Book Fair at my daughter's school. That was a good time and reminded me of my stay at home days when I got to do all the school stuff. Now I have to fit in the occasional odd project around my work schedule. When I do get a chance to help out, though, I always find it great fun. The other moms are nice to talk to and the kids are usually lovely and polite to the PTA ladies.

Wow, this has been rambling. I'll take pity on any reading and finish for tonight. Final note, I have just finished reading Superstud: How I Became a 24 Year Old Virgin by the hilariously sweet Paul Feig. Now, I am starting Speaking with the Angel. Finally out of my maggie-zine rut and reading bookish stuff again.

Oh! By the way...Avast ye mateys! Shiver me timbers, ya scurvy scum, it be Talk Like a Pirate Day! Aaaaarrrggghhhhh!

The Quick and The Dead

This is going to be quick (yes, that is emerging as a pattern) and I am feeling dead (well, at least half). Been busy with the usual work stuff, preparing for the fall storytime sessions. This evening was my first time, and it went fine. The first ones are always somewhat confusing as new kids get used to the routines, but they quickly shape up :-) Aside from work, I have been, on the recommendation of a couple of friends, checking out the wonder that is Craigslist. Interesting place. As for reading, can't seem to get off the magazines as of late. That seems okay though, given how much I usually read, right? Yeah, right. I am about ready to head for home, so I'll write again tomorrow. Possibly in more depth? We'll see, won't we. xo

Quickie

A quickie can be fun. This one promises to be just as uninspired as my longer entries though. Just wanted to stop in and show my face, so to speak. Sunday ended up being a quiet day, but I am still feeling at bit dragged out. My littlest son just called through the front desk and told Smiley, who answered the phone, that he was my husband. Made me laugh. That little Oedipus. Ha! No, he just thought it might help him get through more effectively I think. Smiley found it funny too....and all he ended up wanting to ask waw whether I would give him ice cream money tomorrow. I hope my next husband asks me nice questions like that :-) haha! Argh, my mind is turning to mush. Too much telly and not enough reading...I'm just too tired and distracted. I'll be back in form soon, I hope.

Is It Naptime Yet?

I am so dragging ass today. Every year I forget how tiring it is re-entering the school year. The activity level around the house rises, I can't ease into my day, and the evenings are marred by the constant low level dread of homework needing to be attended to. Homework is just killer.
As a result, I haven't done much reading. I'm actually still working on The Perfect Play. Well, that and lots of magazines lately, which feel more manageble to me in the small chunks of time I have for reading.
Also, my oldest son and his little family have been over several evenings this week. Having him there is not the problem...or not "problem"....thats not the word I want...but his girlfriend and the baby are quite time consuming. She is so happy to have someone pay attention to the baby and give her a little break, that it is impossible to ignore them and go about my business. Of course, much more of these long visits and I may find myself hardening my heart.
I had so much to do on my day off yesterday, but got virtually none of it done. Now, I am faced with a Sunday of stuff I wish were over with :-)

Existential Angst

Feeling it today. Had a HUGE fight with the WTG last night. Mean, nasty f*ck, he is. Ick, gotta shake that feeling off and find a way to enjoy this one life that I am being offered in the here and now. I cannot let this overwhelm me.

I got a phone call today from a friend in Florida. He is such a strange, but cool person. We are actually only cyber and phone friends, but I have known him for several years and we seem to have a certain bond between us. I think if we spent some time together IRL we would probably fight a lot, because we have very different views on some fundamental issues. As it is, though, our friendship has endured and I often find cause to be glad that we've stayed in touch. Additionally, on days like today, I am so deeply grateful for any kindness or signs of goodness in the world.

Here's hoping that tomorrow is a better day...and R., if you are reading this, my thought are there with you and your family. Mpwat!

Luuuuucy, I'm Home!

Back from six days off from toil and trouble, in a manner of speaking. It was nice to have the time away, but at the same time, due to circumstances at home, I was rather glad to be back. The only way WTG and I can stay in the same house is if we basically don't spend any time together. Three of my days off coincided with him being there and it really sort of sucked balls. Ah, well. Nothing to be done about any of that, so moving on....

Anyway, my kids are back in school and all is well, so far. My daughter likes her classes, my teenage son tolerates his, and my little one seems happy so far. He has a teacher that one of my older boys also had. I think the two of them will be fine together, so that is a relief after what we went through last year.

I have so much on my mind lately, but no one to really talk to about it. I will try to set it down here, I suppose. It doesn't help in that I am really talking to myself here...but it does help in that at least I can get the thoughts out of my head and into a more solid form where they might make more sense to me....I don't know.